-PlayerCard; Robert Curry

one; i would fully commit to you

two; gonna straighten up and be better girl for you

three; give you everything you need

four; gonna empty out my phone & i'm givin up my player card

five; always make sure that i put you first

six; i'll make it sure that you never hurt

seven; i'll treat you like a star

empty out my phone & i'm givin up my player card

bored outta my mind.

havent blogged in a while

stuck between two people.

confused.

beach probably today.

thats all i gotta say.

laterrr

If You're Going To Hell, May As Well Keep Going .

its amazing how circumstances can change in 48 hours.

freaking amazing.

everyone says maybe you're mad because that's just your way of getting over me leaving.

because that's the only way you can react. everyone else has already know about it & prepared themselves.

its whatever. you handle things you need to handle the way you handle them. 

its okay.

im just upset. thats it. ill figure it all out.

school is almost over. thank the freaking lord.

next month i take SOL's, which i dont have a good feeling about :\

ughh ; i hate school.

i think im bout to be on my playyyaaa status hahahaha

i wanna see that movie obsessed. idc how bad people said it was. i still wanna watch it.

ill decide if it's bad for myself haha

i dont wanna go to P.E. tmrw ; i hate that freaking class.

and ima hate having to cook in front of my culinary class too.

whatever, its life.

i complain tooooo much. 

laterrr 

Tell Him The Truth ; lyrics

By : Keri Hilson 

Album : In A Perfect World

If you've ever kept a secret 
From the one you love 
This is what it feels like 

If you thought that i was perfect 
boy you were wrong 
I'm far from that 
There's one thing that i've done to you 
That i regret and 
Look i know its no excuse but 
Im only human and young at that 
So i'm gonna make mistakes 
That i hope you understand 

Didn't see it comin 
Wasn't on purpose 
Baby i promise 
I didnt mean to hurt you 
Will you forgive me 
You didnt deserve this 
I know it wasn't worth it 

Ima tell him the truth (when im ready to) 

Tell him the truth (some how) 
Gotta tell him the truth (Thats what i gotta do) 
Tell him the truth (but not now) 
Gotta Tell him the truth (just wait a little bit) 
Tell him the truth (he couldn't handle it) 
Tell him the truth (thats what i gotta do) 
Tell him the truth (but not now ooh) 

Didn't see when i had tears rolling down my face 
I turned my back 
It was heavy on the tongue 
And i knew that you knew something was wrong 
I was about to break open spill out everything 
but something said 
Keri wait, things are going great, what you gonna say 
i dont know maybe something like 

Didn't see it comin 
Wasnt on purpose 
Baby i promise 
I didnt mean to hurt you 
Will you forgive me 
You didnt deserve this 
I know it wasn't worth it 

Ima tell him the truth (when im ready to) 

Tell him the truth (some how) 
Gotta tell him the truth (Thats what i gotta do) 
Tell him the truth (but not now) 
Gotta Tell him the truth (just wait a little bit) 
Tell him the truth (he couldn't handle it) 
Tell him the truth (thats what i gotta do) 
Tell him the truth (but not now ooh) 

I feel less( than nothin) 
Lower (than zero) 
and tired (of frontin) 
Gotta tell him the truth ooh 
I feel less( than nothin) 
Lower (than zero) 
and i'm tired (of frontin) 
Gotta tell him the truth ooh 

Guess i've been waitin for the stars to align 
there's no perfect time 
i gotta tell him the truth 
Cause it's hard to build the truth on a lie 
and if thats what want 

Ima tell him the truth (when im ready to) 

Tell him the truth (some how) 
Gotta tell him the truth (Thats what i gotta do) 
Tell him the truth (but not now) 
Gotta Tell him the truth (just wait a little bit) 
Tell him the truth (he couldn't handle it) 
Tell him the truth (thats what i gotta do) 
Tell him the truth (but not now ooh) 

Baby i'm crying, i'm crying
Ooh
Gotta tell him the truth
I know what i gotta do, i know what i gotta do
Tell him the truth
I'm so scared and i'm sitting here all alone
Tell him the truth, i gotta tell you
What do i do?

Baby Tell Me If You're Ready To Go Home With Me, Tonight

i got the bed ready 

ima set you free tonight

Day26 ; Imma Put It On Her

its absolutely amazing how small the world actually is.

you never really think about it until something appalls you like woahhh

like this one guys i think is cute is someone's girlfriend's brother

hahaha ; long explanation; whatever

but uhm , in the long run i feel as though im gonna be played

the only thing i can do is prepare myself the worst & what i already know is bound to happen.

its been said plenty of times, just indirectly.

whatever ; eff it . eff you . eff the way you gonna treat me.

its bull. thats it.

you can only have one or the other.

things are just confusing the hell outta me lately.

its crazy when i sit here and think about how when school ends, im gonna be living with my dad.

its even more crazy when i think about going to school there.

whateverrr.

laterrrr

Cus You My Baby :)

when you actually sit down and think , you dont want to think anymore.

you want everything to just stop and go away, but sometimes when you start thinking

the thinking just doesnt stop.

its like how i want to go back in time.

or how i want someone to be mine.

or how messed up things are.

or how messed up things could be.

its pathetic.

i hate everything about reminiscing.

sooo, i got madddddd homework & im exhausted & wanna be tan 

hahaaa

laterrr 

Betting With Kasey

Ann & Ashley vs. Kasey

On Kasey's Ring Dance, IF she takes Shawn to her dance, she will have sex with him the night of.



CIRCUMSTANCES ;

if Kasey wins ; Ann & I owe her $25 each.

if Ann & I win ; Kasey owes us $25 each.









i just had to put this somewhere so we can remember. hahaha



latttterrrr !

How Can We Fight When I'm Too Busy Loving You?

you know, im sick and effing tired of trying to make things work and trying to make people happy.



sorry if i freaking irritate you ; its not my fault that you act like something's wrong.
i just try to help & yeahh yeahhhh i know we already came to the conclusion that you dont open up to people . . . but if you ever need someone , just remember that i am ALWAYS here for you , regardless of all the bee ess and drama and everything else that has gone and will go down.
i will always be your friend through the good and bad.
loveee you buddyyyyy :)


well, im going to busch gardens tomorrow with the best friend . thank the freaking lord
i need time with her lol
im gonna miss her ; tooooo much ♥


i really want pizza & a boyfriend lmfao
what kind of wants are those?!
hahaha


laterrrr !

I Couldn't Take It If You Found Someone New.

Day 26 ; Anything

well, today was early release & i went bike riding with kasey :)

haha ; we are tryna loose some "weight" lmfao

but first me, ann, & kasey went to azteca & our friend josh gave us a ride and picked us up. then we went driving like all over ocean view. mhmmm, boys hahaha

uhm, sorry B.H.     idk what i did wrong but i dont want you to be ignoring me just because im tryna help. 

i want you to be as open with me as i am with you. its okay to open up:)

i guess things could be better.

people could stick to their word...

i could go shopping

i could be tan

it could be summer

i could be making good grades.

whatever, i complain alot. idc haha

laterrrr

Put Our Love In The Room

you know how bad i wish that JB would actually see my comments ? lol 

but all of their other comments are overwhelming and they just pile up hahah ;

idk what i would do if i had fans like them. i would run out of time :)  

well, today my mom got the court papers for me to go live with my dad. . . 

uhm, truth is im scared. 

i feel like im in this alone. 

im honestly terrified that everyone is gonna forget about me back at home ; that has to be my biggest fear. 

i used to be scared about alot & going to live with him but things have eased up . but then again gotten worse.  

im scared. very scared.

i dont want my mom to be pissed off because i just want to try to make things better

hopefully whatever happens, i will be forgiven. and i wont be replaced by my best friends

ac. kc. bh. kn. etc. music is the best pain reliever . i just gotta keep that close considering everything is just gonna change soon.

its gonna be like my best friend. haha

music says the words that i cant .

well, im gonna go to bed. long day tomorrow.

kinda ; but its early release ; whateveeerrrr

laterrrr !

How Can We Celebrate A Love That's Too Late ?

i feel like its been forever since i blogged lol

ive just had alot going on at home. life has just not been the way i wanted it. i actually had to come to my mom & tell her that i didnt wanna live with her anymore, that i wanted to live with my dad. & thats no just for summer, thats for summer and school and everything. im scared that when i get to my dad's house i wont want to live their anymore. or something will happen that will make me homesick, when things get bad like this, normally i just turn up & blast music, but i couldnt listen because i didnt have anything with music for a few days . so i have been like dieing man. but i finally got it back today. im gonna stop complaining bout my life now. 

my mom reads my blogs& i hate hurting her when i talk about stuff like this.

sorry mom ♥ but i guess this where i vent . this is where i get everything off my chest.

it just helps me say the things i cant say out loud.

but uhm, looks to me that joe and camilla havent broken up ; okay , whatever makes them happy if they like dating someone that looks like their twin. haha

atleast we know for now nick is single ; or atleast dating me :)))

hahaha

uhmm, allergies are gay dude, ive had a headache all day & sneezing my freaking head off.

and then my nose is all stuffy. blehhh :|

laterrrr :)

xoxox Ashleyy